summer time yummy

tighten the riegns

{N Her Shoes}

stayed the same
no loss/no gain this weigh in
so
i decided to tighten the reigns
counting calories
per SparkPeople 1260-1610 is my range

that means being MORE careful
something's gotta give

wish me luck

finding balance

{-Just be spLendid-}

I am just hanging in there right about now.
My knee is bothering me & hindering my ability to walk/exercise.
...sad...
trying to keep my head up & move on
weight loss/health is about more than just exercising
so I keep telling myself
I eat so much better, however, when I do exercise.
I don't know why exactly, but I do.
so, now I find myself depending more on my will-power
and that is something I am still working on
although I didn't gain, I didn't lose
NO EXCUSE...should have been eating better
bottom line
so onward
with eating better
God help me.

Are you...

{Lover of my soul}

lost 1
back on a sloooow track
but
I'm back on it.

almost 40 years old
and
{still}
trying to find me

no negative thoughts allowed

{-Just be spLendid-}

confession: I have felt a bit defeated lately.
It's been harder than usual to get back on track.
I just wanna cry.
I can NOT give up.
I need this so bad.
I'm in a fight with myself.
The smart, new, don't wanna live that way anymore, side of me MUST win.
Fighting with all I have.
I've got to do this.
I can't go back there...to that ugly place.
Gotta put up my dukes and fight for my life...really.
This is it.
Weigh in on March 1st must be better.
And so on, and so on.
No looking back.

Feb. 1 Weigh In

SUMMER 2010

JANUARY 2011

6 MONTHS
25 POUNDS
(down 2 this weigh in)

NOT GREAT!
BUT
NOT BAD!

still not brave enough for a body shot
not yet, anyway
one day

{-Just be spLendid-}

nice lunch

I am gonna try
chicken with cheese & hummus
yum!

American Legend Steve Prefontaine

Don't Worry

{Meals and Miles}

another snack idea
and
now
my
weigh
in
day
UP 5.
...sigh...
I'm not so worried.
I'll blame it on the knee surgery.
Moving on.
I am so determined to get me back.
The me that used to be happy.
The me that used to feel good about herself.
There's no alternative.
It's going to happen.
So stick around.
You'll see.
Don't worry.

{Iowa Girl Eats}

Got to get some healthy snacks.
Since surgery
I really haven't been back on track 100%.
I have a feeling the scale's gonna show it on the 15th.
Scared.
...deep breath...
BUT
What ever it is I have to get back on track.
100%

breakfast idea & knee update

Breakfast Idea


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Knee Update

Doctor says I don't need my crutch anymore! THANK GOD! :)
I can start riding the stationery bike at the gym. :)
Stitches were removed. :)
Continue PT. :)

Physical Therapist says I can start swimming after my cuts heal a little more.
I can start walking possibley in a couple of weeks if I feel up to it.
No strength training on the leg yet.
Absolutely no running yet. Duh!
Knee is bending nicely.
I am doing things that others normally can't do so soon.

SO, what does this all mean?
PT scheduled twice a week.
Gym, here I come...hopefully Monday.
Gonna ride the bike...3 ten minute intervals
and some upper body strength training.
Yay! Moving forward!

something wonderful

{-Just be spLendid-}

Physical Therapy tomorrow.
School starts tomorrow, and a regular routine.
A fresh start...everyday.
I'm so excited about 2011.

There are some things I want SO BAD & can't have.
I am trying to deal with that on a daily basis.
It is so not easy.

I want to run so bad, it hurts.
Dear God, heal me FAST, please.
Make my knee brand new.

Knee update & Weigh-In

On December 20, 2010, I had ACL reconstructive surgery (jumped out of my husband's truck as if I was superwoman). I have been healing wonderfully. The Doc & the Physical Therapists are impressed with my recovery. So I suppose it sounds like great news. However, I confess, I have been so upset with myself for missing out on so much running. Yes, I am iching to put on my running shoes & continue what I had started. I have yet to run my first 5K. I know I have to take it easy & take it slow for a strong recovery. And I will. BUT, 2011, I am so ready for you. I want to run my first 5K in 2011. I am not setting a goal yet as to when...summer? Really I'm only 11 days out of surgery & PT needs to take full affect. Okay I guess I have a ways to go, but I am so psyced about this new year, I can almost cry!

I did some reading around the net and found quite a few sites (Kevin Sayers UltRunR Site, Suite101, Atlanta GA Sports Medicine, Knee Pain Causes, Treatment, Prevention, and Relief) that had recommended the surgery & most importantly proved that surgery is not the end of running. YES! I was so afraid that I may have messed up my chances of reaching my running (and health) goals. But after reading all the stories I am so freaking excited I can't contain myself. I guess you could see...I want it bad!

GREAT NEWS: I lost 6 pounds.

Wow! I was NOT expecting that. Since surgery I have had days when I ate VERY little and I have had days where I ate whatever...definitely not my regular healthy diet. Plus, NO exercise. WOW! Can't explain it, but will take it. Can't wait for the next weigh in. After my follow up on January 6th, I'm hoping to get cleared for bike riding, swimming, and strength training. So...

Here's to 2011!

Now, I need to look into getting a good brace for my knee. Any recommendations?