no negative thoughts allowed

{-Just be spLendid-}

confession: I have felt a bit defeated lately.
It's been harder than usual to get back on track.
I just wanna cry.
I can NOT give up.
I need this so bad.
I'm in a fight with myself.
The smart, new, don't wanna live that way anymore, side of me MUST win.
Fighting with all I have.
I've got to do this.
I can't go back there...to that ugly place.
Gotta put up my dukes and fight for my life...really.
This is it.
Weigh in on March 1st must be better.
And so on, and so on.
No looking back.

Feb. 1 Weigh In

SUMMER 2010

JANUARY 2011

6 MONTHS
25 POUNDS
(down 2 this weigh in)

NOT GREAT!
BUT
NOT BAD!

still not brave enough for a body shot
not yet, anyway
one day

{-Just be spLendid-}

nice lunch

I am gonna try
chicken with cheese & hummus
yum!

American Legend Steve Prefontaine

Don't Worry

{Meals and Miles}

another snack idea
and
now
my
weigh
in
day
UP 5.
...sigh...
I'm not so worried.
I'll blame it on the knee surgery.
Moving on.
I am so determined to get me back.
The me that used to be happy.
The me that used to feel good about herself.
There's no alternative.
It's going to happen.
So stick around.
You'll see.
Don't worry.

{Iowa Girl Eats}

Got to get some healthy snacks.
Since surgery
I really haven't been back on track 100%.
I have a feeling the scale's gonna show it on the 15th.
Scared.
...deep breath...
BUT
What ever it is I have to get back on track.
100%