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{My Road to Weight Loss}

3 more days

{My Road to Weight Loss}
Three more days for weigh in.
And I'm nervous.
I don't expect much considering Thanksgiving passed & I haven't been able to run due to a knee issue.
But somehow, I'm still nervous.
Still eating good.
Still planning on moving as soon as I get the go ahead from the doc.
Still got my eye on the prize.
(Oh, and the pic. Yeah! Just thought is was a good idea for lunch & thought I'd share it. Stole it from Darci. Check out Darci's blog here. She lost 40 lbs. the right way...in only four months. Yeah, maybe I'll show some progress pics like her...one day.)

Thanksgiving

This year for Thanksgiving I went home as usual. Home being, Key West...where I was born & raised. The break was a good one & a bit sad at the same time.

Good...ate pretty well, considering...Thanksgiving...hello! Ate what I wanted, stopped when I was full. Ate pecan pie (my fav). I'm pretty proud of myself overall. Wasn't deprived & didn't overdo. And good, also, because I was able to spend time with my family.

Bit sad...as I look at pics of myself I have come to the realization that I have wasted 13 years being fat. No, not over-weight....fat. There you go...the ugly truth, I've said it. Okay, I've said it, but I'm still not putting any pics of me up in my fat suit. Why have I allowed this to happen to myself? Why have I not cared about ME enough to take control? I'm not sure. I have no real answer for myself. I can just tell you it feels depressing and it...well...sucks. Before I met my husband I ate well, exercised a lot because skinny has never been "natural" for me. Then I let my life go. Gave it to my husband, my children, or whatever. No good excuses, really, just sad...depressing. I could have lived for them & got fit for me...but I didn't...crap!

But...here's the thing. I can be depressed for the rest of my life OR I can take control & begin to live as I truly want, healthy & free! I want to be happy. I want to be around for my kids (eventually grandkids) for a very long time. I want to be fit and feel great about myself...inside & out! I am very lucky to have family that LOVE me unconditionally. But this is for ME! I have
to do this for me. So, there you have it. A bit depressing, yet full of hope...my life. I have, especially in the few months or so, resolved to get myself together. I am changing inside & out! That was the reason for the change to my blog's name.

This is my Project Me...Project Carla! Yay! I think in the future when I have pics I'd be happy to put up, I might also put up the ones I am hiding from you now so you can see the difference. It will happen. There will be a new me soon, actually the change has already begun.

I am a bit nervous about my weigh-in on December 1st, considering Thanksgiving just passed AND I haven't been able to run ('cause of my stupid knee injury), but I can tell you this, no matter what the results are, I AM FINISHING THIS PROJECT! I will see it through. I will NOT give up. Visit often & you will see. Join me, comment, support, cheer! Stick around, good things are going to happen!

I Will

knee update & yummy idea

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Yummy Idea: Saute Chicken w/ pepper & onions with a big salad for dinner OR in a burrito for lunch. Yummy, making this soon!

Knee Update: Going for an MRI next week to have my knee checked out. Can't wait to find out what it is. Heal. Run. Period.

11/15 weigh in

I'm so disappointed with today's weigh in. I lost a whopping 3 pounds....in 15 days, mind you. Ugh! I know a loss is a loss, but I was really hoping for more than that. I have been working hard. I guess it's just time to tighten the reins. I'm going to begin counting calories. I'll hook up with Fitday. And we'll see between Fitday & my injured knee where I get to on December 1st. I'll tell you one thing's for sure...I'm on a mission & won't give up! Project Me...in full force!

crying

Yesterday I hurt my knee pretty badly. It's very swollen & it hurts. I admit I cried like a baby. Partly because it did hurt, but more so because I was so mad that I might not be able to continue running for a while. I've decided if I want to heal as quickly as possible I need to have it checked out & get professional opinions...rather than listen to everything who thinks I'm fine & it will heal by itself. That may be the case, but I can't stand not knowing for sure. I want to heal as quickly as possible & get back to running. I'm so sad, it's not even funny. (Now, that I think about it, that's a weird saying.)

she said it, not me

A co-worker noticed I'm losing weight. She called me "the incredible shrinking woman." Nice compliment. Thank-you, Co-worker!

I got stood up by my running crew today. AND my phone broke so I didn't have my C25K app. BUT not to worry, I did two miles. Walked a song, ran a song, etc. etc. until 45 minutes passed. I'm happy I didn't get discouraged. But, I'm still not thrilled about my timing. I should be doing 3.1 in that time. It almost seems impossible for me to go faster. Almost being the key word...I'm not giving up.

4 more days till weigh in.

crazy day

Today was a crazy day....busy! So I wasn't able to get any exercise in....sad! I ate okay, though. The only thing is I've been having a big salad & a protein for dinner, but tonight....I opted for a turkey wrap & baked chips because I was at a school function & needed something IBS safe. Tomorrow's another day....looking forward to a nice run.

c25k week 6

Did it! I'm excited! I think my friends & I will have to do our first 5k in January. I'll keep you posted. Whoo-hoo! I felt less tired today after the "training."

I've been eating healthy (by my standards) with one free meal for the week, Ben Style. I'm trying not to count calories to see if I can just do it on my own. We'll see if it paid off on the 15th. I've been tempted to get on the scale, but have fought off the urge.

Here's looking to a good 6 more days. :-)

grocery shop

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lunch & dinner ideas
have a nice week

12 minutes

yesterday...i was exhausted & skipped everything. It wasn't what I had intended on, but it worked out that way. I felt SO guilty last night for skipping. but...

today...went to the park by my lonesome & took it up a notch. warmed up for about five minutes then did two 12 minute runs with a short walk in between & a nice cool down. I admit it was a bit hard, but I didn't stop. So, I pat myself on the back for that. People run marathons, I can run for 12 minutes without stopping, for goodness sake!

tonight...free meal {Ben style}. getting together with some friends & gonna make it a good night.

'till next time (fictitious) Project Me fans... XOXO

running buddies

My running buddies & I hit the track today (not really a track). We decided to go off the C25K program & do our own thing. We warmed up with a brisk walk for 1/4 mile, then ran for 10 minutes, walked another small bit, then ran again for 10 minutes. Afterward we walked for a good 10-15 minutes. It was fun. Not only was the run fun, but messing with them..."What's the matter? Can't keep up?"

Two friends have mentioned that I look like I'm losing weight. It's been good. I just wish I could lose it faster. But I know I'm doing it right, working hard, eating right, and working hard...oh, I said that already, didn't I? Well it warrants a double dose.

Tomorrow I hope to hit the gym with my friend and work out the uppers & abs. I'm so thankful for my friends.

on with the plan

I ran my C25K week 5 day 2 today. Felt great.

Visited the gym for about half an hour.

Researched 5Ks in my area. December 11th I planned on running a 5K, but then later realized I have to work that day. So.... looks like Jan. 9th will be the day. Just gives another month to work on my time. Excited about that...tired after a long day.

c25k week 5

Finished day 1 today, however...I'm only getting two miles done in the time given. That's a bit of a problem, but I'm not so surprised. Just gonna stick to it & work on speed later. I'm happy I did it without suffering much, even at 3:30 in the sun. The sun always makes it harder. SO, I'm happy & proud of myself. Wish I was skinny already, but I will keep working hard & wait.

Oh, and I timed my 11 year old son do a mile today. 9:35. sniff-sniff. so proud. my son rocks.

Nov. 1st weigh in

Ben Does Life style... Well sort of. I'm not posting it. Heck no! Am I embarrassed? Heck yes. I believe all the accountability stuff, it's just not going to happen. I did however, go out and buy a scale that works (obviously, I had one that didn't) & will weigh in on the 1st & 15th Ben style. The guy's hilarious & a great inspiration. Check out his blog and the video I posted previously...120 pound journey.

Anyway, also bought a few groceries to kick start a more consistent diet.

Later, Project Me fans (still being optimistic). <3 & :)